happy new year....

hey there....and happy new year...

I'm starting a new episode in my life....I'm not running away anymore...I'm facing my fears and my failures....and i'm coming through....

Every year I made tones of new year's eve resolutions... about what i wanna be , have, become... Not anymore! ...I only wish that 2008 will be the greatest year of my life...2006 was awesome, 2007 revealing....2008 will be the year I collect my rewards...;)

I entered this year having a blast...the best time in 2007...but just nothing in comparison with what I want 2008 to be...I did get my hopes up already, but this time I will not be disappointed , cause I am the only one in charge of what will or won't happen...As someone really wise said...it is high time I focused on what i really want....so no matter how hard it will be I will enjoy the rocky road, cause it will take me to my goals ... Wish for the moon and enjoy the stars on the way there ;)

Happy new year to everyone!!

...a smile

someone ask me last night: how come i always have a smile on my face?

Hard question to answer....I said that my friends are the reason....well they are also the ones that take it away...and today i could not smile anymore. Someone that i considered a friend disappointed me ...

This is a lesson that i now by heart now and yet i do not seize to forget it all time...I always put in too much..too soon and in the end i am the only one hurt.I'm just like a plane(as nebunici says)...I lift off confident that i will make the final destination...and when i'm most confident i fall...I never stop hoping, but how long will this last...? I eventually crash and burn.....and wake up to a new day a little less confident...sick and tired of being wrong again....but willing to put back the pieces...

Today i was lucky...I only lost a couple of hours of enjoying my life.....last time it took me 6 months and an intense treatment with optimism and good will from a couple of "dutch bastards" that i'll always love an cherish ....just for reminding me of ME...

"It is better to be in chains with friends , than to be in a garden with strangers." -Persian Proverb