happy...almost happy

It's been a while...again. I've made a habit out of this, but i'm here now.

I'm almost happy again. I know what i want and i know how to get it. I've established my goals for the year to come ...and slowly I'm starting to dream again. I'm afraid to say what i want out loud, 'cause i'm scared i'll jinx it. I do not want to be pessimistic, but so far i got my fair share of disappointments. All considered i finally getting on the right path. My confidence is getting stronger and stronger by the day. My scheduel is terrible , but all the excitment of goals i want to reach makes it all seem pleasant.


I'm glad that i still manage to get together with the people close to me. I have the impression that together we can rule the world.It's strange, but if we put our evil little heads together god know's what will get out of it :P.
next time: all of the people who's birthdays we've missed during my "blog absence".

puppy was back in town ...

Guess who's back .... The past week was great ...two of my dearest friends came back to Romania.

Alina aka nebunici came back for good...or so she says. She was for 9 months in a traineeship in the Czech Republic ...

Ronald aka puppy...came back just to visit us. Anyway bothof them came back at the same time and you can't even begin to imagine the joy that came over me ... an incredible week passed by so fast and ronald had to go back home...as for alina she's here to stay and we'll make the most of her time in Romania :)






until the next time

;)

Fuck offf!!!

Today , after a bit more than 7 months i feel like i'm gonna explode if i do not put this post on....

This is a special dedication to a kind of people that do no know limits and do not mind stepping with their dirty feet into others lives ... with the excuse that they're funny... FUNNY???... why should only one person decide what's funny or not? I may be too stupid to understand the logic of it....but i came to a conclusion tonight and I want to make a suggestion to everyone who thinks they are funny ...Be funny on your own! You want to know and people to appreciate you ....make them acknoledge you for YOUR own experience and merits ....not by trashing the reputation of the ones next to you...

I think i'm getting older...and I'd like to think wiser. Everyday i realise more and more about how sick and twisted the world is ...and i just run as far away as i can from this "perfect" world... I'm tired of smart-pants and "funny" people and people so full of themselves that it makes me sick to my stomac...

I'm ending this post with a quote from a really smart book about human relations : "The one that is without sin, through the first stone." The smart entity that said this was Jesus...and although I am not a true practicant of my faith, I believe that this is one of the most important lesson we should learn. We are the sum of the people we meet and the experiences we live...so we should all be kinder to the ones next to us...
...

coming back soon with happy thoughts
;)

hopefull
elena

happy new year....

hey there....and happy new year...

I'm starting a new episode in my life....I'm not running away anymore...I'm facing my fears and my failures....and i'm coming through....

Every year I made tones of new year's eve resolutions... about what i wanna be , have, become... Not anymore! ...I only wish that 2008 will be the greatest year of my life...2006 was awesome, 2007 revealing....2008 will be the year I collect my rewards...;)

I entered this year having a blast...the best time in 2007...but just nothing in comparison with what I want 2008 to be...I did get my hopes up already, but this time I will not be disappointed , cause I am the only one in charge of what will or won't happen...As someone really wise said...it is high time I focused on what i really want....so no matter how hard it will be I will enjoy the rocky road, cause it will take me to my goals ... Wish for the moon and enjoy the stars on the way there ;)

Happy new year to everyone!!

Happy New Year....Happy birthday Hielko;)

First of all...Happy birthday Hielko, cause tomorrow will first be your birthday and than the New year.....

You are the most serious person i got to know this year...and in the same time the most surprising...A very good listener, good adviser, quite smart....and fun and the sitution required it... Thank you...for understanding me in the hard times...and for being the lead star in a couple of the best moments of this year:"the pie", the lion, the opening of the Practiker store...

I'm hope to have your trust for the years to come...I'll earn it again if i have you...you know why:P.

kind regards :P


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

never good enough

...Christmas is closer and closer with every second that passes...and instead of feeling pleased and happy...I feel sader by the minute....The time to draw the line has come...another year has passed with its happy moments, but most of all with the disappointments that have so marked my soul.... and "thank God" there we quite a few....bottom line i am not good enough to be the head-line of life but in the same time not enough devasted/troubled to be worthy of attention...I am nobody....

Dear Santa..... make me somebody, cause no matter what i do i am never good enough ....

If you are going through hell... keep going

There a saying about a light waiting at the end of the tunel ...ithink it is true. No matter how shiety the situation can get you have to find the power to get up and continue your road or you will get yourself more more trapped in the never-ending road of pain....If you do not keep on going "hell" is going to seem even worse to take and you will turn everything else around in hell also ...

find that thing that will take you at the end of the tunel and at the end of the hell you are leaving...cause it is turning my life in a living hell.....

happy birthday to a dutch "bastard"

this is messege is a way of wishing happy birthday to the person that this year had an important role in my life...the "dark " knight, the dutch bastard....names aside : he has been the person that showed me that you can enjoy ever second of your life and look forward for the upcoming day.

you were all a smile...an entertainer...on your birthday(you're finally 21:P) i wish you to never loose this side of yourself...It inspire me and i'm sure that it will give an example to way more people. ;)

kus
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

PS: don't drink to much....you have to enjoy this day :P

it's all up to me

NPS- National Preparation Seminar.....Amara...Lebada Hotel....2007...organized by our local committe....what did i get out of it?

many things....many feelings...loads of learnings...so lay back cause you are in for quite a lecture...

I love my EB team...
After an incredibly challenging year we managed to pull everything back together and have the best conference of our lives...not in what the content in concerned, but in the moments spent together , the feelings , the emotions...Thank you guys for an awesome experience.

I still have the power to fight
The sessions that i attended gave new meanings to all of the things that i thought i already knew... At the begining i thought i will just be a waste of my time and i more than surprised to realise that i am not as great as i had the impression and that i still have many more things to learn and that it is all up to me to achieve what i want.
Become what you think.
I know the theory for quite some time now, i just never believe it up to this moment.It's all about positive thinking and visualization of the things that we want and thay will come to us. To have the complete key to success and stay true ourselves we must also follow the pattern :
To be - To do - To have. Most people do it the other way around and this is why they and up failing or loosing their our personlity and the road to succes. just joking >:)

There is no bad communication, just feedback.
55% of the things we transmit are by the way we say it and we adapt the messege to the receiver. In order not to fail in your communication you have to adapt to the person next to you. Be empathic!

Design is everything!
Design helps us transmitt a imagine in the woerld. People are fed up with stereotypes and fakes, that is why we are responsible of making our design apealling to the others. There is no place for neutrality , you just have the courage to define yourself...if you don't someone else will.
Steve Jobs said: "You know a design is good when you want to lick it!"
Every battle has its price.Pick up your teeth and go home!

Live for something, rather that die for nothing!
This two quotes speak for themselves and there is no need to explain them anymore, just say are the 2 things that are currently guiding my steps and it's a good thing i found them.

.:: free at last ::.

I now have an answer to all the questions that troubled me lately....I had them all along, i just refused to open eyes. I do not like them all ...but that is that!I will just have to struggle more next time and pray for the best....

It seems that all the things that i desire most do not come through for me in the end...it is disapointing...but i think that all things happen for a reason. I wasn't good enough to fullfill my current dreams... better times are ahead...it's time to look back and recue all that deserves to be rescued and move on to better older horizons...

I had a dream...and this past year i fed myself up with it, until i felt the need to turn toward something else( did that , and unluckily for me it crushed and burned-nebunici aici poti sa faci faza cu avionul:P) .... now i come back to my dream...and this time i will make it come true.

Part of this dream is having my friends close and if that means going to an unknown place I'd do it...cause only YOU have the power to take my mind away from troubles and worries, only YOU know what makes my day and how i like to have fun, only YOU allow me to go crazy and acompany me in this burst of energy......only YOU the people i call my best friends.

I now have a plan for the year to come and you are all included...I'm aiming high !But no matter how long it will take me I'm doing it because this is what i trully want and you deserve !